okay, thanksgiving was a while back...tough.
I've been thinking a lot about things lately. relationships, life, the usual gambit of lousy introspective thought. Tonight I am peturbed. I really don't have hardly anything to be thankful for. I have never had anything in my life that made me step back and say "wow, thank goodness I am alive"
I have my health, food in my stomach, a roof over my head. I have personal freedoms that are taken for granted. I have a job (shitty but I have one). There isn't war knocking on my doorstep, there isn't famine of rampant disease, there is nothing interesting or exciting, or dangerous. I sit behind a desk all day getting fat. Either I have grown extremely calloused, or there is simply nothing happenign around me. it makes me depressed, because the most stressful thing in my life is that I have a hard time making rent this month. Thats a lousy fucking existence.
And yet even when things were good (not very long ago at all) I still wasn't happy. I have a GF that I'm not happy with. I have a vehicle I can't be happy with. I have a roommate I can't be happy with. I have an apt that is okay but an apt. I have parents that are good now but treated me wrong in the past. About the only thing that is good and constant is my brother, and I never get to see him anymore.
more depression. lousy.
-g
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Friday, December 12, 2008
I need to get my shit together.
Okay, so after talking with Bjen Slocummaki (hahaha) at the WWR last weekend, I am again browsing various Desert Racing things. Tonight, at work, I have come across the TeamDust homepage while lokoing for T1 Silverado information.
TeamDust is a pair of brothers, from Canada I think, who bought a desert race LR Defender 110 (weird choice if you ask me) and ran the Baja 1000. And they finnished!
After reading the team Bio I see that they have no notable racing or competition exprerience. How fuckin crazy is that? and in a Defender!? A jeep cherokee shoudl be a breeze compared to running that beast.
Time to start raising money and building the truck. Like...yesterday.'
Their Baja 1000 Story
TeamDust is a pair of brothers, from Canada I think, who bought a desert race LR Defender 110 (weird choice if you ask me) and ran the Baja 1000. And they finnished!
After reading the team Bio I see that they have no notable racing or competition exprerience. How fuckin crazy is that? and in a Defender!? A jeep cherokee shoudl be a breeze compared to running that beast.
Time to start raising money and building the truck. Like...yesterday.'
Their Baja 1000 Story
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
A thought
I had an appifany this morning in History class.
I am an anti-politician, so I paid very little attention to the election other than the results. But I do find socio-demographics interesting.
Clearly Obama connected with a lot more youth than McCain. But I am curious how and why? The girl that sits next to me in History, Amanda, asked me this morning if I voted yesterday. She had voted for Obama and was "happy, and proud of our country" Which is a fine attitude to have, but I wonder where ti comes from? Amanda tends to sleep in class, never takes notes, and i'm guessing doesn't do that great on tests. So I draw the conclusion that she is not the most informed person since if She does not pay attention in a class why would she read about the candidates for the presidency? And of all the kids that I have classes with I think she is one of the more thoughtful and attentive of them all.
Does this mean that our country has elected a president out of ignorance? How many college students who voted for Obama (or McCain) did so blindly, withou regard for the issues, simply doing so because MTV and Hollywood told them to? Thats a scary thought to me.
-G
I am an anti-politician, so I paid very little attention to the election other than the results. But I do find socio-demographics interesting.
Clearly Obama connected with a lot more youth than McCain. But I am curious how and why? The girl that sits next to me in History, Amanda, asked me this morning if I voted yesterday. She had voted for Obama and was "happy, and proud of our country" Which is a fine attitude to have, but I wonder where ti comes from? Amanda tends to sleep in class, never takes notes, and i'm guessing doesn't do that great on tests. So I draw the conclusion that she is not the most informed person since if She does not pay attention in a class why would she read about the candidates for the presidency? And of all the kids that I have classes with I think she is one of the more thoughtful and attentive of them all.
Does this mean that our country has elected a president out of ignorance? How many college students who voted for Obama (or McCain) did so blindly, withou regard for the issues, simply doing so because MTV and Hollywood told them to? Thats a scary thought to me.
-G
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
How I voted today
Today was some big election deal. President or some such. So to show what side I supported; I "cast my vote" as such:
Today I bought a little cheap piece of plastic crap directly from China. The way I see it- no matter who gets elected tonight our bubbles of international economy or going to come crashing down fairly soon, so to celebrate my born capitalism, I bought something direct from China. My way of saying- fuck you Mr. President, I couldn't give a shit less about who you are as long as I can get cheap shit made by somebody else. I feel that that vocalizes most America's (that I know) philosophy about today.
Now I'm going to go back to work and await the arrival of my new gold plated cell phone, cause that's the way I roll.
Oh, and I also voted at Toppers by ordering a 1 large bacon pizza, 1 large pepperoni pizza, and 1 triple order of Toppersticks. so Ha!
-g :)
Today I bought a little cheap piece of plastic crap directly from China. The way I see it- no matter who gets elected tonight our bubbles of international economy or going to come crashing down fairly soon, so to celebrate my born capitalism, I bought something direct from China. My way of saying- fuck you Mr. President, I couldn't give a shit less about who you are as long as I can get cheap shit made by somebody else. I feel that that vocalizes most America's (that I know) philosophy about today.
Now I'm going to go back to work and await the arrival of my new gold plated cell phone, cause that's the way I roll.
Oh, and I also voted at Toppers by ordering a 1 large bacon pizza, 1 large pepperoni pizza, and 1 triple order of Toppersticks. so Ha!
-g :)
Friday, October 31, 2008
Dreams
Some men have dreams. 2 wives, 2 lives, 2 kids, anything really. Sure I wouldn't mind some perks of all those good wholsome things in life, but really; Can't a man just find a Ferrari that costs less than 2 houses? The closest thing is a Testarossa or a 400i, neither of which are overly amazing to drive. Sad Really.
Oh well. Life goes on. I have now had 2 different women drunkely passed out in my bed in as many weekends. I don't think that should be on any man's wish list. College is messed up some times. It makes you want some things so badly, and yet since I have already seen and tasted life I am held back from doing what most respecting 19 year olds would, and that makes me sad/mad sometimes. Why can't life just be simpler, It was once. I should go read Alyssa's analysis paper about lost childhoods maybe it will cheer me up. lol
-g :)
Oh well. Life goes on. I have now had 2 different women drunkely passed out in my bed in as many weekends. I don't think that should be on any man's wish list. College is messed up some times. It makes you want some things so badly, and yet since I have already seen and tasted life I am held back from doing what most respecting 19 year olds would, and that makes me sad/mad sometimes. Why can't life just be simpler, It was once. I should go read Alyssa's analysis paper about lost childhoods maybe it will cheer me up. lol
-g :)
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Good Times
What a weekend, good times had by all. Thursday got a bit rocky towards the end, but it couldaa been worse. I'm quite used taking care of people, so really not that bad of a night. Friday was good too, a delicious breakfast even if we did have to wait for it. Saturday was work work work. Sunday was just downright fun. Thanks Alyssa for being a sport.
Friday, October 24, 2008
LSPR 08
well, a little bit after the fact, but here it is!
LSPR was another great weekend. I felt blessed to be a Stage Captain in Training. It was great fun and I finally learned about what was going on and how to set up a start control correctly. Lots of good fun.
The weekend started with the long trek from Mankato through Duluth to Calumet/Houghton. Peter also came up from his new home in Northern IL. We met up on Thursday night and got things organized. Pete's new P71 was an instant hit. The work assignments got a bit mixed up since me and Pete stuck together and he had been assigned elsewhere. Whoops. Their new Radio assignment system was not very good IMHO.
Friday night in Kenton we had a near dissaster in that almost nobody showed up to work our stage. wtf people. Learn what responsibility is. Basically everything went smoothly at the start of Stage 5, and mostly smooth on Stage 7. A long trek home and off to bed.
Saturday we worked Burma stages, again me as Stage Captain. Things went like clockwork on Saturday. No bad incedents on Brockway so everything ran smooth and on time, heck, we even started stage 12 one minute early! Incredible.
The food at the banquet was tasty and the awards were better than usual. Yay everybody.
so...not the most exciting weekend and we missed a fair bit of action, but i was glad to finally get in a position of responsibility. good stuff. Now all I need is to get back in to Rally and get a car started. Better start buying lottery tickets.
-g :)
LSPR was another great weekend. I felt blessed to be a Stage Captain in Training. It was great fun and I finally learned about what was going on and how to set up a start control correctly. Lots of good fun.
The weekend started with the long trek from Mankato through Duluth to Calumet/Houghton. Peter also came up from his new home in Northern IL. We met up on Thursday night and got things organized. Pete's new P71 was an instant hit. The work assignments got a bit mixed up since me and Pete stuck together and he had been assigned elsewhere. Whoops. Their new Radio assignment system was not very good IMHO.
Friday night in Kenton we had a near dissaster in that almost nobody showed up to work our stage. wtf people. Learn what responsibility is. Basically everything went smoothly at the start of Stage 5, and mostly smooth on Stage 7. A long trek home and off to bed.
Saturday we worked Burma stages, again me as Stage Captain. Things went like clockwork on Saturday. No bad incedents on Brockway so everything ran smooth and on time, heck, we even started stage 12 one minute early! Incredible.
The food at the banquet was tasty and the awards were better than usual. Yay everybody.
so...not the most exciting weekend and we missed a fair bit of action, but i was glad to finally get in a position of responsibility. good stuff. Now all I need is to get back in to Rally and get a car started. Better start buying lottery tickets.
-g :)
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